and it kept falling while he drowned...

it was that first drop of summer rain....

that came down... and kept falling....

it was a sign... that summer was almost gone...

and his days were over....

and he sat there... quietly...tapping to the rhythm of the rain...

the rain never stopped that summer...

it just kept falling....

into the heart of a lonely soul.... into the soul of a crushed man...

while it flowed through his eyes of sorrows...

he was there... all by himself.... by the rain...

as wrinkles formed....

as tears dropped...

as time passed

he dreamt.... he reminisced... and he hoped for one last time

but he never knew....

that all's gone.... all's gone....

如果有一件事是重要的

最近..发生的事情...虽然不多...却带来数不尽的感触...

五味搀杂...我忘了怎么逃避...也忘了怎么面对...

下着了...呆住了...

原来...仍有那么多...得全权交由命运处理...

好灰心...却也好生气...

生气自己的愚昧...灰心自己的懦弱...

那天...母亲探访了病危的婆婆...

虽然法律上...婆婆已与母亲无任何瓜葛...

母亲还是去看了她...虽被阿姨强迫而去...但是还是去了...

不知道...看着曾经苛刻的婆婆...身体插着管子...母亲...可仍心存怨恨？

母亲与婆家...一向来的关系都不是很好...

婆媳之间的斗争...自古至今...争论不断...母亲...也成了受害者...

那时候...听见了母亲冷眼里所传来的感叹...

或许...惆怅的是生命的无奈...或许惆怅的是过去...

然而相信此刻已无怨无悔...

da. da. da.

随着秋雨的降临...
草地上的昆虫也乐了...
它们唱着天真的儿歌
嗒...嗒...嗒...

秋雨...
带来了凉风...也带来了心虚...

随着秋雨的降临...
天上的云朵也灰了...
它们唱着浩瀚的悲歌...
嗒...嗒...嗒...

秋雨...
带来了雨滴...也带来了泪滴...

随着秋雨的降临...
心里还还相扣的鑫锁却结了
它们也唱着哀号的凯歌...
嗒...嗒...嗒...

秋雨...
带来了落叶...也带来了沧桑...

喜欢在这漫无止境的秋雨里...喝着热汤...
让汤的温度...给冰冷的灵魂升温...
让麻木的灵魂...感觉到温暖的平静...
再次回到空虚里自怜....
这或许就是秋雨的魅力吧....

平静...

其实...上完了asia works 的课也快有两个月了

其中从...无不尽段的自责至自悲到现在的自满...经历了酸甜苦辣...慢慢一步一脚印地摸索...将心中的浮躁平息...

ha...也够久了...其实...最近与想道歉的人一一都说了...心中起初仍有些情绪...不过...当欣然接受那一刻...却发现...自己原来也已经原谅自己了...而发自内心的歉意...也为我这颗哀伤的心...带来了桃花园似的境界

或许心里豁达多了...或许心里看见了自己纠缠下去的怜悯...选择踏出是第一步...随机则是充满生机的生命的开始...

总之...船到桥头自然直吧...